The Inner Dark
Overhead the stars twinkle in the clear dark.
Each has a corona of its own, as the skies are clear.
From more than one of them came the conquerors, long ago.
They came first as a tidal wave bearing visitors only hinted-at in
the most ancient of journals, visitors that spread the destruction of the wave
far beyond the reach of the waters. These visitors were tall, and never remained
in the same shape for very long, but always had black skin that glistened, and
tentacles with mouths at the end of them, and were always horrible to
behold.
They spoke not, but howled on occasion, wordlessly, as they
ravened, creating random carnage where they passed. Behind them came a retinue
equally strange, doglike loping creatures that tore at the corpses and the
still-living bodies, faceless black batwinged humanoids that laughed like hyenas
in an echo chamber, and others, some of two legs, some of four, some with no
legs at all.
This tide swept over the land in seeming instants, and all were
overcome by the Creeping Black Death. Those of us who managed to live through
this cataclysm were enslaved, and taken far underground into nighted caverns,
where torches glowed and smoked in the endless depths.
But we weren't taken soon enough to miss the rest of the
apocalypse.
I myself watched in horror as an earthquake took the city of St.
Louis below, and squalid legions poured forth from the fissure. One of the other
slaves told me that the west coast is now part of Atlantis, which I understood
to mean that it's flooded. Always thought that would happen. And even that was
just the beginning. Time is different now, even wind-up watches work funny or
not at all. Everything looks different too, the edges are sharper and almost
anything can cut you if you get too close, which isn't hard to do, because
nothing seems to be in the same place for very long.
Just after St. Louis went under, the sky cracked open with a
thunder that could be heard around the globe, and a series of globes issued from
the opening.
These globes were of all sizes, thousands of them, and they had a
metallic sheen to them. They whirled madly as they descended, and all of the
clocks stopped.
A clamor arose of piping and drumming from the invaders, and many
voices were heard in a chant that encircled the planet.
The head of a giant appeared on the horizon, the octopoid skull of
the god from beneath the sea. His footsteps could be heard above the din. This
god squatted and sat on his throne, formerly the Black Hills, where he could be
worshipped properly, with the appropriate ceremony while he awaited the return
of his brothers.
This god made his wishes known to all, in our heads. There was no
argument.
"I am Cthulhu," he said. "I am your GOD. Bow to me."
Hell, I bowed.
"You will serve me. I command my servants to bring me sacrifice,
and to hail my brother gods that we may enjoy this precious little planetoid for
an appetizer before we go forth to reclaim our realms.
"All hail the name of Cthulhu."
His name poured from a billion throats. "CTHULHU!"
"Hail Yog-Sothoth! For He is come!"
Again a billion throats spoke the name.
"And hail my brother Hastur! For with my speaking of His Mighty
Name, he comes. I forget our ancient differences, my brother. Let us hold
council! Hail Hastur!"
Again the chorus of a billion throats, and he came. Cthulhu had
made us all aware of the events.
Hastur the unspeakable came, bringing with him fragments of his
Darkness. He was loathsome beyond belief, and indescribable was his appearance.
I could not turn away, though I would. Cthulhu had willed it to be so.
The sky beyond the stars was growing brighter, as if a new sun had
come. But it didn't grow warmer. Instead it grew colder, freezing cold, sub-zero
cold.
A wind began, screeching of the interstellar spaces, a wind from
the Outer Dark between the stars. The wind howled in voices from eons ago, and
swept the surface clean of atmosphere.
"Breathe not!" Commanded Cthulhu. "The planet shall preserve you-I
shall preserve you for now. For though lowlier than the ant to the foot as you
are to me, I am merciful. It pleases me to allow you to exist, for your small
minds are toothsome and I need sustenance from time to time.
"Ithaqua has gone to the stars, his home and domain, and Hastur
has gone also, to prepare the way.
"The messenger has come."
Cthulhu stopped sending.
Instead a buzzing began to grow between my ears, where I couldn't
scratch, and filled the back of my brain until the message came with perfect
clarity.
"I am Nyarlathotep. I am the messenger of the Gods, and you have
known me previously. Know this-you will not survive. Do not fight. Resistance is
futile. The universe is rightfully our possession, and we are claiming it.
Forget your gods.
"We have eaten them before. Now shield your eyes, for his glory is
not for you to view. AZATHOTH COMES!" This last hurt bad, way deep inside my
head, and blood erupted from my ears as I closed my eyes to the horror.
I could see more than enough in my mind's eye, of the churning
nuclear maelstrom that was the God of the Gods, no longer blind, no longer idiot
as the stars achieved the configuration that had been long foretold. His
Presence could be felt as waves of radiation washed over the Earth, despoiling
and reconfiguring the surface of the planet. Cities ran like quicksilver as they
were arranged in angles more pleasing to the eyes of their new owners.
My flesh ran like water then, as I was also rearranged to suit
Them. We all were.
There are no mirrors here. I have no idea what I look like, and no
one will tell me. I began the journey to the inner dark shortly after the parade
of our new Gods, which went on endlessly after that, each being burned right
into my brain so that I could never forget.
During that journey, I saw enough parts of myself that I really
don't want to know. What I saw filled me with enough horrors. I shamble forth on
tentacles, at the bottom of me. The rest gets larger as it gets further away
(lower), and looks flat above the tentacles.
I have a mouth, I know, because sometimes it amuses one of Them to
feed us. Whatever it is, we are compelled to consume it, because They say so. I
scream constantly, but nobody can hear.
My equilibrium is completely different. I'm bottom-heavy, and
cannot fall. I just roll around in a circle for a moment, and then I'm back up
again.
Falls don't kill or harm me, but they hurt just the same. They
hurt a lot. I fell from a ledge into the plain below, which would have squished
me. I bounced and rebounded off a rock.
It hurt so terribly that I wished to die, not for the first time.
But that gift is denied us too. No surcease at all.
The journey to the inner dark took a long time. It would be better
if I did not detail what I encountered in the wreck of Chicago, if I did not
describe the horror that visited when I passed through what had been Iowa, the
giant furred thing that grinned evilly as we pilgrims joined together in the
endless procession through the ruined cities and smoking craters to the Black
Hills. Nor would I willingly tell you of the things that were told to us as we
continued northward through the loathsome fungi-infested swamp that had been the
Dakotas.
I will not make known the shapes of my fellow travelers, nor
mention their aspect, save that they were unhuman and horrible, with the saddest
eyes you could imagine.
When we had all at last gathered in and around the footprints of
the mighty Cthulhu, and were settled before him, I chanced to behold the eyes of
a fellow traveler, and know well that to look into those eyes is to look into
the seas of the spaces between the stars, which we all carry in our heads like
the signal of an untuned radio station, and to know the sadness of the passing
of an age. In the eyes of a traveler lies the inner dark where we dwell.
Despite these travails, my sanity is not at risk. Those from
Outside wish us to have this experience in full.
They even let us send out our little thoughts once in a while. I
do believe that our terrors amuse them.
Shoggoths came and led us down to the entrances to the inner dark,
and we descended the endless stair into the lightless caverns where we now
dwell, and shamble in the torchlight.
At times we dance, slowly and spasmodically to the strains of the
endless piping and drumming.
The preceding story was written as an exercise, an attempt to marry some of the concerns of Harlan Ellison's "I have No Mouth, and I Must Scream" with Lovecraftian horror. Some of it works, some of it doesn't. It was published in this form by the very generous E.P. Berglund, in Nightscapes #14.
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